The Dua

Well... There were signs about he might be the hayr one. I've been aware of that for a long time. But today I shockingly realized something else... And that is he was my accepted dua. 

Eleven months before I first knew about him, I had made a dua. A dua for a hayr spouse with one or two specific things, I was probably crying at the time. Before that, I wasn't expecting or seeking something like that; however right after the occasion happened around May 2022, I wanted it so desperately.

Don't know how long I prayed for it, but then I must surely forgot about it. Because when last year I was told about him, I said I'm not considering right now. I was very unsure though.

It took me four months to figure out what I want, and feel fully ready for something like that. I realized several qualities in him that I would love, and although they were out there when they first told me about him I somehow hadn't quite get it. In between those times, I got signs too. My reaction was like, excitedly, "yeah?! he might be the one.". I never thought I should've actually act upon those signs. I thought I just needed to wait.

And today, I recalled the dua I've made almost two years ago... Yes, SubhanAllah. This gives me regret and hope at the same time. This whole occasion taught me many lessons about myself, the life and duas... My life has changed a lot within a year... in a good way.

Also yesterday, I came to the point that I felt guided enough by Allah about the whole situation. Now thankfully I know what to do, how to make dua about it. I feel much better now, may Allah make it hayr and whatever respond He gives my dua, make my heart fully content with it.